Trusting in trust

I'm just gonna jump right in and say that completely handing my life over to God was one of the hardest things I've ever done. To say; "God, I totally trust you, I let go of my life and offer it to you" was difficult. How do I know that by trusting God everything will work out fine? How do I know that he won't just leave me in the dark? How do I know he will help me make the right decisions? I don't. And I guess that's why they call it trust.

Trust:
'trʌst'
noun
Firm belief in the reliability, truth, or ability of someone or something.

Faith:
'feɪθ'
noun
Complete trust or confidence in someone or something.

Its interesting when you look up the synonyms for these words because they're practically identical:

Trust: confidence, belief, faith, freedom from suspicion/doubt, sureness, certainty, certitude, assurance, conviction, credence, reliance.

Faith: trust, belief, confidence, conviction, credence, reliance, dependence; optimism, hopefulness, hope, expectation.

Trust plays a huge part when it comes to faith. So how can you sustain a strong faith and relationship with God if you haven't completely surrendered to him and trusted him with all that you are?

You may be reading this thinking "that's great for you sounds like you and God are mega tight and it's come easily"- you couldn't be more wrong. I know that in my life at the moment there are several things I'm trusting into God's hands. And its SO hard but SO wonderful. Its amazing having faith that he's got it under control but my goodness, at times I've cried out to him saying "where are you? You promised you would make my paths straight but I currently can't even see one step in front of the other." What I find most difficult is trusting Him but not seeing instant results. When I know his promises but I have to wait for an unknown amount of time before I can see them fulfilled.
But I guess that's why they call it trust.

I think trust is one of the areas evil likes to try and grasp hold of and twist, because it has such a close relationship with faith. Ruin one and you've got a firm grip on them both. The devil will find a way to attack- those thoughts of 'what if' and 'it's been too long God's obviously forgotten' and 'this promise will never be fulfilled'- thats evil sneaking its way in. I know because I have thought these things for myself, and its knocked me down time and time again. I am far from a negative person but when something I care about so much seems to be going in the opposite direction to what I believe God wants and what I want, I start to doubt my trust in God all together. Doubt my trust and I doubt my faith, doubt my faith and the devils found a way in.

I guess what I'm trying to say is this: (and I suppose I am kind of writing this for my own benefit as well as to benefit others because it's also what I need to hear - practice what you preach and all that.) 

Don't lose your trust in God just because you can't see the finish line. It's there, sometimes it's far off, sometimes its closer than you think. But from experience, the moment you let go of earthly strength and grasp hold of heavenly strength, things start to fall into place.

I just want to encourage you to lean back and let God catch you, He really does have it under control and if you place your trust in him and offer him your all, he will bless that. Just remember that with this trust you have to put up with God's timing. It's a pain in the butt but its blessed so who am I to argue? Just because it's not happening when you want it to, doesn't mean it won't happen at all. Trust in our ALL KNOWING, ALL SEEING God. He's not gonna let you down.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight."
-Proverbs 3:5-6

Jesus spoke to me about this whilst I was out chasing the sunset the other evening. I strongly recommend and encourage you take time out to seek God and try to hear his voice, he's got some pretty awesome stuff to say.