I swear it only comes on whilst I'm making my journey to church but I normally don't think much of it other than "Urgh, not again!!"
However yesterday was different. This symbol lit up in front of me and I'm pretty sure I literally said out loud: "Yeah, me too".
I am getting to that point where I literally feel like I am running on empty. I mean, my life is pretty good don't get me wrong, I am so thankful for all I've been blessed with, but sometimes I just get so tired. Tired of deadlines, tired of rejections, tired of maybe's, tired of running around, tired of being accused, tired of being lonely, tired of illness, tired of not knowing, tired of goodbyes.. you get the point. And sometimes where it hits the hardest is spiritually. And spiritually running out of fuel is the worst!
When you pray and pray for something and nothing happens, when you feel like you're so close to your prayer being answered and then it falls out from underneath you. It seems that all the things in life that knock us back, naturally fall back on our faith, because what better way for darkness to take over the light than when your light starting to fade anyway? What better way for evil to twist your thoughts and emotions than when you're out of control of them? In the chaos of the storm it is so easy to drift far away from God, almost without even knowing it.
If you have read this so far and thought, "yep, I know that feeling", then I want to encourage you to look at it from the perspective of light and not dark. Instead of automatically thinking the worst of a situation and assuming God is punishing you, take a step back and look at it through the lens of Jesus. Thing's really aren't as bad as they seem when you do that, if you run towards Him instead of turning away then only good can come from it. You run out of fuel from running away, or giving up.
God uses all things for good, so think about how He is, or can, use your situation, whatever it may be, for good. The more you run towards him and anchor yourself in him, the more you will see light take over the darkness, your fuel light will turn off and you will be overflowing.
"...The Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all – how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died – more than that, who was raised to life – is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
‘For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.’
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
-Romans 8:26-39
